“A binge doesn’t just happen.” – Me
I’m writing this in the middle of the ocean, where I’m on the tail end of an eight-day cruise. I have 27 days binge-free. Before that – if you read some of my earlier, semi-coherent blogs – I was binging my brains out several times a week.
So how am I doing on a ship where every sort of food is available round the clock?
I am doing really, really well.
And that is because of these two reasons:
- Before I set foot on deck, I decided to treat the cruise as a “floating retreat.” I committed to taking full advantage of the fresh air, gym, healthy food options and time to sleep. I understood that my vacation will be what I make of it.
- I realized that I am not a victim of my eating disorder.
A binge doesn’t just happen.
As much I’d like to believe nothing is ever my fault, I know that food doesn’t leap off the buffet table and into one’s mouth. On this particular cruise ship at least, you must do these things to binge:
- Leave your cabin, located at the very back of the ship, next to the engines
- Walk the endless narrow hallway to the elevator and shove yourself in with approximately ten fellow travelers wearing cargo shorts and logo’d T-shirts
- Exit the elevator at Deck 6, where the buffet is located
- Walk across the deck, where bad live reggae music is constantly played, to the buffet
- Attempt unsuccessfully to avoid the Hand Sanitizer Girl who waits at the buffet start to squirt you with a clear runny liquid that makes your fingers sticky
- Grab an oversized plate and elbow your way through the crowd to pile your plate with sugar- and flour-laden foods from six different food stations
- Circle the dining room to try and score an empty table among the screaming kids and harried parents to consume your food in relative peace …
I could go on but I think you get it.
So this has been a very empowering trip for me. I’m learning that yes, I can take care of myself. I would not say that “adulting” is anywhere near fun … but it’s darn empowering, that’s for sure.
2019 is going to be good.
If all continues to go well – and I’ll do everything I can to make sure that happens – I’ll return the mainland in two days several pounds lighter, rested and ready to ring in a happy, healthy New Year.
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