“For every diet there’s an equal and opposite binge.” – Geneen Roth
I’ve decided to do Keto and I’m taking y’all with me.
It all started with Dr. Josh Axe, whose toothy good looks suckered me in to buying his book. I read it, learned the benefits of a Keto plan, agreed wholeheartedly … and never did it.
And then my mom went on Keto, lost thirty pounds, felt fabulous and got herself a boyfriend.
Okay, I’m in.
However … I’m a binge-eater, which means that I have to respect that fact that I have an illness that thrives on the binge-starve cycle. Since Keto is a very limited diet, how am I possibly going to make this work for me?
Here’s what I’m NOT going to do.
(1) I’m not going on a diet. I want Keto to be the foundation of my recovery; a plan that will treat my chronic candidiasis, hormone imbalances, and poor digestion. Yes, I want to lose weight but I want to be sane more.
I also don’t want to set myself up for the inevitable, equal and opposite binge.
I have a basic understanding of how the Keto plan works, so I’m not weighing and measuring portions, counting “macros” or calories, stepping on the scale obsessively or otherwise doing “diety” type things.
I’ll weigh myself eventually but right now I’m too scared. Unfortunately, I’ve spent most of the month of January binge-eating and binge-watching “This is Us” and I’ve gained a noticeable about of weight.
I have no desire to step on the scale any time in the near future.
I’m guessing from the ways my clothes fit that I have about 30 pounds to lose. I’m not being hard on myself when I say that my body looks terrible – bloated, flabby skin, underarms that shake when I wave. The truth is that almost two years of hardcore compulsive eating have taken their toll on my body it’s not pretty.
(2) If I go off the plan for whatever reason, I’m not going to use that as an excuse to binge. I’m forever giving up black-and-white thinking.
Or, as Dr. Glenn Livingston, author of Never Binge Again says, “Just because you chip one tooth doesn’t mean you have to knock out the rest of the teeth.”
Here’s what I AM going to do.
(1) Stick with it. I tend to jump from one thing to another (Whole30, then food tracking, then Overeaters Anonymous, then back to Whole30, etc.) so I’m giving Keto the full 90 day commitment, no jumping ship midway.
(2) Eat food I like. There’s a ton of recipes I plan to try; I want to eat what I love and love what I eat.
That’s it for now. You’ll be hearing a lot from me; I look forward to sharing this journey with you.
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