Getting off the rollercoaster.

“It took more than a day to put it on. It will take more than a day to take it off.” – Anonymous

Before I came back to CEA-HOW, I spent two years and a virtual fortune on on programs designed to get my compulsive eating under control. One of them was Never Binge Again, a brain-based program that is medically and scientifically sound. Its premise is that the lower, reptilian brain with all of its primal urges, has taken control over the higher, logical brain and just needs to be controlled. Totally makes sense.

Unless you’re a compulsive eater. And then its makes no sense whatsoever.

Because in these cases – cases like mine – the brain IS the problem. The Big Book of Alcoholics anonymous describes the situation perfectly when it says, “So we think the problem centers in his mind.”

Or as we like to say in program…

“You can’t cure your own sick mind with your own sick mind.”

So back to CEA-HOW, for me, which is a program designed for people like me, who have no ability to out-think a binge as much as we might wish, pray and try.

However, one extremely valuable lesson I learned from Never Binge Again was this: When I try to starve myself the body will take over and create a biological urge to binge in an effort to survive.

I’ve embraced this knowledge and applied it to my current food plan. My plan of eating involves three weighed-and-measured meals, which would be labeled as “moderate” and two snacks. I eat regularly and my meals are delicious and filling. I have enough energy to exercise and I sleep well.

The trade off is that I am not losing weight quickly. My weight loss last month was one pound on the scale, although I’ve gained a noticeable amount of strength in the muscles I previously neglected.

I have accepted the fact that it is going to take time to lose the 25+ extra pounds I still carry on my body. I cannot afford to trigger the biological “survival binge” response, which I now know was responsible for so many of my late-night binges.

I had to permanently get off that particular rollercoaster.

This is a new approach that I know will work. The excitement of quick and dramatic weight loss is being replaced by a focus on developing the other previously neglected components of my recovery, such as daily prayer and meditation, investing in my friendships and bringing my best self into my work life.

It’s a more mature approach and I like it. I just have to remind myself every time I put on my bigger-sized pants that, unfortunately, still fit, that weight loss will come … and that in the big picture of things, there is no rush.

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