“She Meant Well.” – what they’ll put on my gravestone.
Hello, my name is (not actually) Glinda and I am a good witch.
Meaning that for the most part, I do no harm, mean no evil, but somehow, pretty regularly even, manage to eff things up … with the very best of intentions.
Among other things, I am a somewhat recent divorcee, a member of two 12-step fellowships, a former fat girl, occasional smoker (I’m into bumming yours right now), corporate drone, and a woman just trying to figure it out.
You see, I left my husband a couple of years ago. When I walked out the door, I also left a house, a community, a financial partner, a best friend and just so much more. I truly had no idea what I was doing … or how hard it was going to be.
Had I known the pain and suffering, confusion and grief, financial fear and loneliness, I never would have left. And leaving was exactly the thing I needed to move forward with my life.
Of course, I did it all wrong.
The first thing I did was fall in love with a man with whom I work (I know, I know). Then, when that went south, I started binge-eating, an addiction from which I’d been free for fifteen years.
I started this blog in the midst of that addiction and its original title was “Day 1”. You’ll see that my earlier posts deal with the struggle of trying to find a solution (Whole30 anyone?) while the later ones cover a more broad palette.
My Groupon only covers one syringe. Yeah, I know. But just do your best.
Now that I am no longer binging my brains out night after night – one day at a time, as we like to say in our meetings – I want to discuss the topics that affect my newly single life, such as dating, damn-these-fillers-are expensive, lonely nights, empty time, and what exactly do you do upon seeing happy families on the beach while you’re walking alone (again) and want to throw yourself in the ocean and drown?
So, for the time-being at least, I’m going to remain anonymous. I need me some time to just explore in words, whatevs, people.
So bear with me as I find my voice. My hope is that you will find yours while reading this and we’ll figure this life thing together.
I can’t be the only one walking around confused as all hell.
I look forward to hearing from you. Please feel free to leave a Comment on any one for he individual blogs or email me at Day1recovery@gmail.com.